ogni momento è un giudizio

Certi ricordi ti assalgono, imprevisti, grazie a frasi che ci si era cercati di non ricordare. Non so dove sei o dove potresti essere, ma non importa. Non serve la certezza, non serve il dubbio. Mi basta chiedere cosa diresti a vedermi oggi, se mi sorrideresti o mi condanneresti. Ho paura che sia la seconda, ma ci sto provando, credimi. E' difficile bilanciare il tutto, tenere in equilibrio la propria vita e provare a fare ciò che è meglio. Ho paura che ti ho sempre fallito, però ho anche trovate qualcosa che so ti farebbe piacere.

"Never remember, never forget, in the end each of us is called to account for his or her actions. Don't pity me, nor cry for me, I don't want you to. I ask only this: you who finds this letter, try your best always, be different, be free. Don't judge your actions by their consequences, the end never justifies the means. A world full of Prufrocks and hand-me-down intellectuals shouldn't be lived. People who pretend to be something else are rotten inside. Full of deception and people who hide from each other. It sickens me. To the core. I am not a part of this world or these people. Be honest, always, to a vice. Never be swayed into blindness, by ease or by difficulty. You are responsible for yourself, nobody else can be. I wish I could have changed things, but I don't have the strength. I never have. So I leave this world, this place, in the hope that those who come after me will. Never remember, never forget: you are always the cause of ill in the world."